Does my best is not enough?

After months of cruel training for preparation of crucial District II - B Schools Press Conference i just lose. Thats one of the most disappointing part of my life. I just noticed this past few days i get lots of disappointment and stress and i really dont know why its happening in my self? 'Em i really that bad for me to get this 'karma'? I dont know what my mind response to this situations. Does the stars shine down? When the announcing of winners, i was really tense. I feel like vomiting. My heart is exploding. Then 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2 and 1 my name was not called. My world was burned down. I hold my rosary tight, i pray every minute but nothing happen. I went to journ room after the BEST IN PAGSULAT NG BALITA was called and there i unleashed my emotions. I was really hurt. I was really disappointed. I was really mad. I had mix emotions. I was really toungue tied that i lost every word i want to say. I want to cry but to tears want to fall. Everybody outside was cheering my schoolmates who won and for our school who bagged the first place overall champion in the said press con. They won but me, i lose. Everybody wears a smile becuase they got a Certificate of Merit and me bears a unbreakable sorrow engulfing my mind. I envied all of them. They told me its okay but it will never be okay being the one who do you think is the most naive in the group. I want to blame everybody for my defeat. One is the judge, who i think is so damn for not letting me not to win that competition. Second is God, why does He want to experience this? Why does He not answer my prayers. But in the end of the day, i know its my fault and the one who i can lean into was God. I was sorry for blaming Him. I was really wrong. I know God found me weak and He just want me to be strong. I love God for everything that he is doing for me. Then they told me also, i did my best, but does my best is enough?  Yes, i did but why is it that i lose? We did our best so that we can get want we want and it is all paid back. But why does my best did not do its magic? What was God really meant for doing this? But what it is that God was really meant i will just wait for it and for sure it will make me so flabbergasted. This is the start of fhe fall of my journ career in our school but the start of new opportunity.

Dengue naghasik sa MM, 77 patay

Pinangangambahan ngayon ng mga residente ng Metro Manila ang patuloy na paglobo ng mga biktima ng dengue matapos mapatay ang 77 katao dahil sa nakakamatay na sakit na ito.

Ayon kay Dr. Eduardo Janairo, Director ng Kagawaran ng Kalusugan ( DOH ) sa Metro Manila na umabot na sa 11, 260 dengue cases ang naitala mula Enero hanggang Agosto 11.

Idinagdag ni Janiro na mas mataas ito ng 109 porsiyento kumpara noong nakaraang taon.

Pinangungunahan bilang "Dengue Capital" ang lunsod Quezon sumonod ang Caloocan, Maynila, Pasig at Valenzuela.

Batay sa ulat ng DOH Regional Epidemiological and Surveillance Unit ( RESU ) na ang San Lazaro Hospital, Philippine Children's Medical Hospital, St. Luke's Medical Center, The Medical City at Bernardino General Hospital ang mga hospital na may mataas na bilang ng mga tumatanggap ng dengue patients sa Metro Manila.

Ayon kay Dr. Eric Tayag, Epidemiology Department ng DOH, na kailangan ang matagal at masusing pagsusuri upang malaman kung epektibo ang halamang "tawa-tawa" laban sa dengue.

Iniimbestigahan na rin ng DOH kung mayroon mas mabangis na virus ang dengue dahil na rin sa patuloy na pagtaas ng bilang ng mga pasyente dahil sa dengue.

Lumabas sa ulat ng DOH na ayaw ng lamok na may dengue virus ang kulay dilaw, berde at puti at gustong-gusto rin nila ang mapapawis na bahagi ng katawan ng tao tulad ng binti at braso.

-ito yung ginawa ko sa District press con:) okay lang kahit natalo

Scintillating Eye and a Deep Sigh

I never thought my senior year will be like this. It's just the first grading of the school year but it seems like i've work for almost ten months. Every week is like a month. Every day is like a week. Being a section one in our school is really though although i admit that im not that honor student like others but still i try my best to excel in our different subjects. August. Month of Language? In Filipino 'Buwan ng Wika'. This month gave me back breaking jobs or im just being exaggerate. Last, last week our section competed in 5 other section in Sabayang Pagbigkas in sour school and the section that will win will be the one to compete in District, amd praise God, we won. We're so happy that because we sacrifice a lot just to win in that competition and it all paid off plus finally i got a category in Journalism. I was grasping for it and at last God, answered my prayer. My category was 'Pagsulat ng Balita' and actually i just have a few knowledge about it but still i did my best because i want our teacher to be disappointed to me. And again it all paid off because our teacher told me that im improving in my category. Back in Sabayang Pagbigkas, we compete in Commonwealth HS. That school was really huge but some of the students are _____. Then we lose. We thought we have a chance to win but we are wrong maybe because we lack of some CRITERIA that the judges want. The hell with them! We go back to our school after that with mixed emotions and in the end of the day we just took a deep sigh. Some are angry, mad, frustrated. But what we can do? The result is irrevocable. We will just unleashed our true talent in the next competition we will be competing. And again back in Journalism. District Press Con is near. I was really terrified for that day. I dont know if i will win or not but i really really want to win so that i can prove something on my self. I will promise that i will win and do my best because God has been on my side all this time and with my prayer and scintillating eye for sure He help me with this. Thank you Lord for all the blessings.

The Naked Eye

It was already dusk that time it was also the time for us to go home. Me and Janna went down early because our teacher wants us to go down early. We wait in front of Nancy Store and i was really exhausted that time because have our p.e yesterday. This happened today. my mind was running so fast because all i want that time was to lie on my bed and sleep. The people are starting to descend and still Shiela and Levi is still not around. So i was really bored and a little pit pissed off. So i was talking to Janna when i turned to my left side and i see him but i just pretend that i dont see him. Then i didnt turn the second time only to noticed they leave with his friend and Shiela and Levi arrived. So i tell Shiela that i saw him and they just left a while ago but still we just walk like a turtle. When we are in the tunnel i noticed a gray bag. That was the color of his bag but as far as i remember he have a gray bag but the brand of his bag was jansport? i dunno but i saw was a Hawk brand. So i was a little bit confused but i looked clearly in his perspiring neck and his newly haircut that the one in my front was HIM! So my heart beats faster. Then i saw he was talking to our former classmate back when we are second year and her sister. I know her sister is flirt but the other one i know she is a true Filipina girl. I also know they have a deeper relationship. So i feel a mix emotion, jealousy and anger and so much more. They went to the right side and we on the right side. I jump into conclusion that they are always going home together. But today i realize that why do i feel this? We dont have any relationship or something. But if they are really on im happy for them i wish them that they make it long. Fuck themselves!