I see your face as i sleep every night

I see your face as i sleep every night
thinking what should i do just be your love
and holding this pillow color white so tight
i see myself flying with many dove
i cant make it to your chain lock heart
i hope i now how to open it and
teach your heart to love me and ride a cart
lets make a love under the tree never end
but she always at your side and never left
tickle you and at your side every time
please love me because i cant help myself
and come with me and be happy at mine
     I should stop this feeling and forget you
     and i don't know you and i cant find a clue
    

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It was Sunday
they just do anything just to pay
they are united
and im contented


They all wearing brown
ans she think she wear a crown
jealousy always attack
and i was really shock


She was near on the window
and she show her sharp claw
if you just touch her toy
and it was my big boy


I love him form the start
and that girl look like a tart
she cant complete her day
if she dont flirt and play


But you always smile
when you see her per mile
why are you happy ?
seeing that ugly ?


I cant understand why i feel this
and i all i want is you to believe me please
i thought you can help me
to forget the past and love again and be happy


I always dreaming of you
and writing this paper so blue
id better not to love again
because im just making a sin .. . .

My Apologies

I hope you know my attitude
sometimes i enjoy solitude
"Janna, let them sit here"
and you just ignore what you hear


I did that to apologize
but it made my anger in bigger size
and promise that i will end this up
and the bubble of our friendship just pop


They try to fix it
i feel your ambiance while your in sit
but i feel im so bad
and i know you feel so sad


Walk alone thinking nothing
and forgetting everything
you're my best friend right ?
and i missed the times your on my sight


We always fought
and never been caught
so im here in your front
writing this in not your favorite font


I know apologize are not enough
because what you did is really tough
i see your trying to rebuild it
stand up and come with me to eat


I hope you're okay
so that all things will be pay
im so sorry for what i did
and i hope fixing this will succeed


Shiela Damian, dont cry
and lets fly to sky
because we will go to Korea
and Geun Seuk is waiting for you


Again im so sorry
and im such a pity
not to see your beauty
and your simplicity . . .




Im so sorry to hurt your feelings . . .

Why ? ?

We met in just a second
shes brown and a girl
but a boyish one
and people tease her that


We walk together to go home
she never bring me to her house
shes kind and beautiful
and i treat her as my special friend


But is that enough
to be best of friends ?
so tell me now:


That your my friend
you will be at my side
we will not quarrel anymore
but now your so far to me
i thought you are the one
who will be my long lasting friend
but i hope its not the ned
what happen to us ?
tell me why ?
lets talk and tell me why ?


We have been so long
so much problems we faced
and did so much funny moments
we are always partner


We are always happy
laughing so loud
in the middle of the crowd
and thought of our dreams together


But is that enough
to be our friendship be strong ?
so tell me now:

That your my friend

you will be at my side

we will not quarrel anymore

but now your so far to me

i thought you are the one

who will be my long lasting friend

but i hope its not the ned

what happen to us ?

tell me why ?

lets talk and tell me why ?

We always quarreling now

and i know its always my fault

she tell to me that

"im not your friend, im just a mess"

so it means your a pest ! !

and thought:

That your my friend

we understand each other

we will not forget each other

but now talking to another guy

and saying goodbye . .

and saying goodbye . . . 

But now burning letters of yours

what a damn friendship

i thought i know you

but i was wrong

i hope we can build it again

because its not too late

and ask you

what happen to us ?

why ? tell me why ?

lets talk and tell me why ?  ?

: (

Why it cant be real ? ?

Id never talk to you
nor show my smile to you
 let the sunshine touch your skin
and get rid of her to let in


Id never laugh with you
nor make a black cloth to sew 
 let me walk in front of you
and get rid of the anger and make it few


Id never tell you this
nor make my life so peace
 let me close my eyes
and get rid of that pink spy


Ive always dreaming of you
with our hands so tight
taking picture of us in light
give me pink flowers
it made you so sweeter


Ive always dreaming of us
walking in the aisle
and making promise with a smile
but its always a dream
why it cant be real ?
so we can feel

why it cant be real ?

so we can feel

Id never felt this before
nor think of someone at four
let me love you
and get rid of my love flue


Id never be strong
nor be in my decision so wrong
and let me show love
and get rid of that shy


Id never write someone a poem
nor sing a song so solemn
and let me tell you this
and get rid of her to grips

Ive always dreaming of you

with our hands so tight

taking picture of us in light

give me pink flowers

it made you so sweeter

Ive always dreaming of us

walking in the aisle

and making promise with a smile

but its always a dream

why it cant be real ?

so we can feel

why it cant be real ?

so we can feel

Every time i look at you

she always at your back

and you bring her backpack

envy always ate me

and crying all night so lonely

I hope you are listening to me

for you to understand carefully

because im only dreaming of you

only dreaming of you

Ive always dreaming of you

with our hands so tight

taking picture of us in light

give me pink flowers

it made you so sweeter

Ive always dreaming of us

walking in the aisle

and making promise with a smile

but its always a dream

why it cant be real ?

so we can feel

why it cant be real ?

so we can feel

So baby hold my hands

and never woke up

for us to enjoy this moment . .

Anger /: (

Afternoon of November 19, 2010
when i was checking this white with my pen
and counting one to ten
thinking of you and me
were we can enjoy the time happily


It was Friday
when i walk to sway
there voice want to say
to put my debt to pay


The sky was dark
i can only see was lark
flying with their pluck
and look at my clock


The ring bell so loud
and my heart want to pound
want to see the swan swimming on the pond
and look all people with their face so sad


Leave this room and close the door
walk my feet in our red floor
and want the sky to be soar
now looking at you in the corridor


I cant believe on what i see
i feel like drowning on the sea
that pink girl is happy
lying on the ground and you were so lovely


i was really jealous with that pink girl
and i want to slam her face on the floor
and twist her to curl
and throw her body to that edifice from 4th floor


And when i walk in front of you
your hand was in your face without hue
maybe your sad because she flirt you ?
thats what you get for wasting your time
from that ugly monster


Dont worry  im still in your side
and heal your aching pride
because i understand your side
because i love you with all my heart . . .

Down

Crying and thinking
of all the things i should be doing
tears cover this four wall room
and all i wanted is to roam
reminiscing the past
and wish the time would be fast


Wednesday, afternoon
and receive that white card
and thought to be disregard
of all people i love
"Dont be sad, its okay"
and they want me to believe on what they say


Dipressed on what i see
and walk alone near the sea
smile wont come out
eyes telling to make distance


Writing this near to you
and wanted to be in your arm
waiting to say
and all things will be pay


Stand up and walk
and see you talk
put this white to brown
so i will not be frown


And learn that
no one hold me tight
and im so happy for you
because your life is full of hue


Your on the top and im in down
looking at you so high
because you deserve it


And learn that
i cannot touch you
because your so high enough
your 2 and its tough

Firework

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

          - this really inspire me a lot

         - it teach me to believe in myself

       - and believe that i can do it ! !

The Last One : )

I'm looking myself in a mirror
and thinking of all my errors
asking if i'm good ?
he answered"no, dude",
asking if i'm better ?
he answered "no, talk sweeter",
asking if i'm best
he answered 'no, why is it your brain don't have space?",


I'm looking myself in the water
and thinking they are better
asking if i could stop ?
he answered"yes, you could really stop",
asking if i have talent ?
he answered "none, you are impotent",
asking if i can beat them ?
he answered "no, you have to face problem",


As I look myself
why is this my fate ?
and begging for help
they shouted me "in your face !"
stop my imagination
that i can't write poem


As I look myself again
there are voice saying "put down the pen"
and realize the truth
that i cant be best
because im like a trash
that must be crash


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